I should already know

That's not for me.

I have been going through a windstorm of things that could be different this year.

Things at the college, things in my life, things that could get a different way.

Now, I am asking myself if I have got a wrong way. Perhaps, this wrong way began when I missplaced that old guy here. Who am I now? A better person? Not? I don't know, but sometimes I just want to be fifteen again to live my life in a better way that a had choosen one day. I wish I had enjoyed better my old times.

As you can see, I can't put my ideas correctly, all my head is confused and in the same time clear.

I'm feeling as I found a solution to my problems, but I don't know how to do that (or, I don't know if I can do that really). Oh, no, I cannot think this way once more.
This is my time... My time to set me free. I'm afraid about that, but I guess so those things won't happen one more time.

If you are thinking "What are you talking about?", I'll ask you clearly "Now, I have decisions on my hands as I never had, but I think I will get the right way this time"

What can you do to help me? Just send me good feelings =)

And don't waste your time again with idiot posts.

And If you're thinking that this words are sad, I'll answer you: No.

I'm just trying to organize my brain.

But I'm sure about one thing: That's not for me (or I'm wrong again).